The Holy Mobile
For the past few years I’ve been doing some in-depth self-analysis and critiquing of my life. Most of it has been done in the confines of my car; driving to class, home, lunch, wherever. Drivers on the road that see me are probably thinking; ‘its either this kid is talking to someone thru Bluetooth or he’s just some crazy emo talking to himself’! Nevertheless, my time in the car has really become a sanctuary for me to articulate my thoughts and feelings in my “oh so crazy” life. I’ve been fortunate enough to experience some great epiphanies through my ramblings and it has been very therapeutic. Some of my greatest problems have been mitigated just from a car ride….
One of the biggest issues that I have been struggling with has been about faith. Unfortunately, I hit a pretty big pot hole, pun intended, a few years ago that led me astray from God. It’s not worth mentioning the cause(s) in depth because … well it just isn’t, but the effects put me in a position where I doubted the existence of God. This isn’t the first time I’ve doubted his existence but for some odd reason it felt so logical to deny his existence THIS time.
From a biological perspective; if a cell atrophies, it is completely destroyed and will never come back. The human body is made of of millions upon millions of cells that go through a cycle of atrophy and rebirth. Each cell has to face death at some point and when that time comes, nothing can bring THAT cell back. Obviously, cloning and nuclear transfer methods can be utilized but nevertheless THAT same cell can’t be recreated. With that said, I’ve been skeptical over the resurrection of Jesus. His resurrection completely null and voided every single concept that I had learned throughout my undergraduate tenure at IU. How does a human body come completely back to life after 3 days of no heartbeat or blood circulation? Again, from a biological stance, it can not resurrect.
The domains of Christianity and Science have placed me in a complex circumstance where I can’t decipher the two cohesively. Am I supposed to believe in the miracles and extraordinary events of the bible or am I supposed to trust in my human instincts of truth and reality?
Would love to get some feedback…..
